I’ve been feeling a little lost since the summer solstice last week. We had company and while they were here my puppy Rasta began to look very ill. It turned out to be eye problems, with probable glaucoma in one eye. He was barely moving and looked terrible. I had no idea how painful glaucoma can be! We are now giving him painkillers and thinking about taking him to a dog ophthalmologist. (Who knew?)
This was all so traumatic for me. Rasta and I are very close, and in a place where I have so few real friends, I depend on him so much. Since we lost Charlie our cat just a few weeks ago I have been thinking about death too much I guess. Just about everyone in my family is elderly and have a number of health challenges including myself. When did my whole world change? When did I begin wondering when my dog, my family and I will die? Nice summer solstice theme, huh? I do feel fortunate to have had my parents and siblings for so much of my life…
I often am surprised to find out how old I am. How about you?
Adventures of the NEW??? Old Farts 
I think the reality of death becomes more of a presence in our thinking and living as we age, as we experience the passing of our parents in particular. I still feel like the same young girl inside but life (and the mirror) tells me otherwise. Still, it’s all good and I am grateful for every day. I hope your puppy recovers quickly. 🙂
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Thanks for your kind words Candi. I also believe the solstice intensifies feelings, at least for me, and makes me confront some my most difficult feelings.
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I understand how you feel – I lost my younger brother quite suddenly this year to cancer – loved him so . My Mother is 95 with dementia and is declining rapidly. I depend on my dog for comfort and would be devastated if anything should happen to Buddy – he is 13 and slowing down. I have lost so many people in my life in the past five years and I think about death a lot – I feel such a loss – life is so different now and at times a long for the past. But I have a good life and a great husband. I love to garden and have two wonderful sisters – great neighbors and so much to be thankful for. So I go thru each day missing my loved ones but living my life to the fullest. Hope your puppy recovers quickly. Wishing you better days ahead.
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Thanks for your understanding and compassion Mary Ellen. So good to feel just a little bit less alone…
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Not the best way to kick off the summer, will be sending up prayers to keep you strong during this time.
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Thanks!
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